Prittie's Xanga

A rosy shade of the world

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 17:19:34 GMT

To sum up, an uncertain existence, in many ways, since last I wrote. A bit disillusioned, but not surprised, to find that are no execptions to the rule when it comes to the striking difference between my priorities and those of the world's. I know now I am marked to always be just a bit strange, and only of real value - in friendship, love and wisdom - to those very lucky few.

And in between, just trying to be real.

To add to that, what's officially my third near-death experience while driving to the remote office; lost, scared, and late in unfamiliar parts when I cut, sharply, in front of a full double decker at an impossible speed. From my rear view mirror, the terrified driver had a look of death on his face, and was unable to resume speed for some twenty seconds. I sped sheepishly away, and spent the rest of the day feeling shaken and, whether or not related to this, flustered and just bewildered. My heart was like a herd of stampeding animals all afternoon. Well, a right of attribution when the incident was so recent, and not fabricated, either.

But leaving work, from the unlikely Kwun Tong Bypass, saw the most heartwrenchingly beautiful sunset, ever, in life. A magenta sun splashed across the orange sky and across the still harbor, the first twinkles of the eastern HK skyline teasing my reeling mood. It was so tempting to rest my eyes on this possibly exaggerated wonder.

But I focused on the road, as I should, and arrived safely where I needed to be.

Too much Ron Isley

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 08:00:46 GMT

I can't believe I pulled that this am.
Guilt-ridden. Feel pathethically useless. Trying darndest to overcome, and grateful to the understanding people around.
No more Ron Isley before bed!

Though separately,
Proud -- proud of you, and proud of us that we are pulling through things together. Still a bit frustrating but giant step forward. But no weary heart and much hope. Good. Good.

So why do my eyes still feel like they've been crying all night???

Two old faves to share.

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 16:09:40 GMT

A random little rant

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 08:04:52 GMT

Lighten up! If I say hi, you say hi or not, but at least not have an attitude. If I ask something out of simple good will, answer or not, but at least not have an attitude. If I smile at you, smile back or not, but at least not roll your eyes and have an attitude. That's it! Life's too short.

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Ted, I commented on top of your comment on youtube Canto Boy. She's old enuf to be your mom or at least looks it!

Disney speaks truth

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 16:18:58 GMT

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad

it's not my fault
if in God's plan
he made the devil so much stronger than a man

We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What's around the riverbend

If only they'd look closer
Would they see a poor boy? No, siree
They'd find out
There's so much more to me

i don't know when
i don't know how
but i know something's starting right now
watch and you'll see
someday i'll be
part of your world

The future is littered with prizes
And though I'm the main addressee
The point that I must emphasize is
You won't get a sniff without me!
So prepare for the coup of the century
Be prepared for the murkiest scam
Meticulous planning
Tenacity spanning
Decades of denial
Is simply why I'll
Be king undisputed
Respected, saluted
And seen for the wonder I am
Yes, my teeth and ambitions are bared
Be prepared!

Wednesday

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 12:41:34 GMT

We dream, we change lives.

Monday

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 16:21:11 GMT

I feel tired and moody and achy and hungry and bloated and honestly, a bit masochistic.

And sad.

I think it can only be good that I have time to try. Jozflam is worth much more than just a few minutes of torturous, blurry vision.

Anyway,

I'm reduced to random words.

This space used to be mine. And now, it's a wasteland filled with ousted, mundane thoughts from a weary heart.

Can't get enough

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 16:03:37 GMT

I'm getting to know this girl really well.

bon anniversaire my friend

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 05:47:00 GMT

A day early, but I didn't want to forget - so here you go, essentially29.

Can hardly believe that it's been a year already since I wrote the silly rhyme for your 28th. My creative juices are stifled atm...let me think of something and get back to you.

Just know that aside from the fact that your obsession with wc scares me, you're still the best friend anyone can ask for.

No sweat.

Sat, 30 May 2009 15:13:16 GMT

How am I?

She really doesn't know.
should know better than to believe that.

My words are:
It's a necessity, not a tragedy. Everybody should emerge stronger and better, as that is the basis for every decision made, every direction taken.